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Tuesday, October 4, 2011

Stop the Ride!

     Where have I been you might ask?  Or perhaps not.  Probably not....but it's time for my soul to be typed out once again.  Eight (8) hours from now there will be a BIG change in our lives.  How I wish it was a positive, exciting change.  If you knew of it; you might feel sorry for us...but I don't want that.  At all.  Nope.  It's a decision that, in the long run, WILL be positive for #2 Son.  Well, we can hope.

     He will not see it as we do.  He will hate us.  I recall periodic bouts of "hating" my own parents as a youngster.  But mine was because I was grounded.  His hate will be different.  His will be deep, rage-inducing.  Or maybe he'll crack and fold up into a blob of agony. 

     He is going to have to make it through a hellish season....one not many "normals" experience.  To be brutally honest, I pray he survives it. 

     When #2 Son was 3, we would drive into town on Saturday to "play" with my Mom.  I remember telling her, "I think I love him too much."  She wisely said, "No, you love him just enough."  He's been different since early, early on.  Say 2 or 3 years of age.  It's been a constant roller-coaster-life.  For 17 years...

     And, in 7 hours + 55 minutes, the roller coaster may stop for a while. 

    

11 comments:

Pam said...

Oh Va. I'm thinking of you and praying for the strength you need to get through this.

catie said...

given time, it just might turn out to be a positive, exciting change.
we are with you in spirit today.
great.big.hugs. ♥

Emily said...

I'm with you in spirit Vava. I do hope all is okay.

Dawn said...

We are there with you Vava...arms all entwined around you...xoxo

Dianne said...

Hugging you so tight dear friend. Praying too. xoxo

Georgan Reitmeier said...

God moves in the most difficult situations. He is able in this one as well. You have a huge team of prayer supporters for you, your family and especially #2!

martha said...

VaVa....love you, you are amazing.
Just wanted to tell you that. Praying for you this week...

Anonymous said...

Oh Vava it seems like I've known you for forever. and for forever my prayer has been, "this time it will work." also I am very naive when it comes to your situation. I just want to knock him in the head and say wake up kid, you have the two best parents in the world....who love you...who support you....who always catch you when u fall. See I don't have the parenting skills needed to cope. You are strong beyond my imagination. I pray for you and Gary, you are soooo deserving of God's blessings. xoxo Franco

gretchenwoosley said...

Vava,
I hope this all turned out okay for you and your family. You have been incredibly strong.

Slim Paley said...

Sending Thanksgiving blessings to you and your family.

Best wishes,
SP

MA said...

Thinking of you at this time of year and hoping peace is yours.... :)
Love you my dear, Mary Ann :)