Isn't that the way they say it goes?
Well, let's forget all that
And give me the number if you can find it
So I can call just to tell 'em I'm fine and to show
I've overcome the blow, I've learned to take it well
I only wish my words could just convince myself
That it just wasn't real
But that's not the way it feels…
I had not heard his voice in twelve days. A call came through, and I took it. It was ‘the system’ and I allowed myself to hear “Hi, Mom.” Whoa. Those two words can really do a number on ya. I was as stiff, cold and stoic as I was in our last conversation….
The crazy part of our story is that as NUTS as our drama is, as intense and heavy…so is our love. God made me to love deeply. And I have.
For me to turn aside, not engage in conversation with him, was difficult, to say the least. It’s just better not to talk at all. I need to not answer 866 #s!
What would Jesus do? Would he answer and talk on the phone? At this moment, I am a confused Mom. Lord – give me the strength I need. You are what I need. Help me to pull away…if I am to pull away. Help me to know what to do.