I don't think I've ever said those words aloud until this morning. You see, it's close to one year that #2 Son left us. Not of his own accord, mind you. "The Authorities" had something to do with it. I often have 'aha' moments or thoughts of clarity while in the shower or putting on my face. So be it, this morning.
When you consider something in retrospect, you think about it afterwards, and often have a different opinion about it from the one that you had at the time. Well! H-E-L-L-O, yes I do.
On November 17, 2011, I heard: "He BETTER learn his lesson." "He's made his own bed, and now he has to lie in it." More comments were peppered our way - many solicited. I am a prayer hog. Not much is off limits for me. Man, I was on board with the decision of the court. He needed this program. There really was no other choice...And, yes, he deserved it AND earned it AND needed it.
November is drawing near - and he will soon be released to us. Am I ready? I am. In retrospect, it has taken these many months for HIM to submit to authority, be quiet and have lots of time to repent and think. Same for me.
I've spent many hours journaling, in prayer, and reflecting. It's been good - really good. How odd that while my son, my baby, has been behind a barbed wire fence, I have been okay. Not every day, but more often than not. I guess you'd say there has been a calm within
a my storm. This season has been THE most difficult #2 Son has experienced. I see it on his face when we visit.
Just last week we were granted an hour and a half visit. He literally did a hop-skip, giddy-jump when he spotted us. A HUGE grin spread across that gorgeous face, and he said: "Man, it's good to see y'all. I love you!" We sat and talked quietly.
Toward the end of our time, his shoulders stooped a bit and he told us that he may get written up. The good news is he wears blue - he's a "leader" and has a job. His is in the chow hall...he dishes out the slop. And cleans up.
He devised a better way to clean CAKE crumbs. Sweep said crumbs from the table into a cup. Dump the cup. Why am I going into so much detail about CAKE!? Patience...
A CO walked up to him and informed him he'd be written up. For "stealing CAKE." Now c'mon. There should be consequences for actions. Always. But I believe my son for a number of reasons. Who would want to eat disgusting CAKE crumbs??? Plus, he's a tad OCD and germ-aphobic. Alas....he is under authority; so it's out of my hands.
We'll learn in our next letter whether the DR (Discipline Report) was dismissed. If it was not, his 'out' date could be extended. I can do nada on his behalf. Except pray - which I have - and asked my prayer team to pray, that #2 Son is granted favor.
- In retrospect, the past year has not been a CAKE walk.
- Our son could not have his CAKE and eat it too; therefore he is where he is...
- That CO really 'takes the CAKE' when it comes to power trips.
...BUT the icing on the CAKE, will be when our boy comes home, a changed young man.