5 AM: I weigh 500 pounds. It's hard to walk, I am drowning...in deep water. Or so it feels.
My heart and soul are heavy and forced me to stay put today. It is a work day; but I simply cannot. I sit here with a late cup of coffee....it's normally at 5 am not 10 am.
10 AM: Joining me is my grand-dog, Lucy, a pit bull. #1 Son has trained her up well. I cannot tell you how much I love this dog. She knows what's going on (and the other dogs do too!!). Canines know us, feel us, and I believe, empathize with us.
I walked into the sun room to quiet my heavy heart---planning to read and just be blah. And, there sat Lucy, with her blue eyes, staring me down. After loving on her a bit, sipping hot coffee and reading Shauna's latest post, I'm swimming upward from the deep.
I've got a couple of beautiful boys. One is shiny, the other is tarnished. Shiny son owns Lucy. When he introduced her to me a couple years ago, I was petrified. Really nervous about her. She IS a pit bull.
We are dog-sitting for a while and I welcome her. She makes my dogs look like buffoons! Lucy is well mannered and loving. As I was petting her, the words "beauty for ashes" played in my mind. The world fears pit bulls; yet they can be beautiful if loved and trained correctly. Beauty for ashes.
I am praying for #2 Son - that his ashes will be restored to beauty.
11:30 AM: ...thankful for coffee, the beautiful light in our home at 10 am, dogs' unconditional love, and for days to take care of oneself. Thank You, Lord, for new minutes, and hours - You Who pulls us from the deep.
Onward & UPward........