Nine days in and it's been a VERY, VERY good year. Many blogs tout a new year, new you; fresh beginnings, a brand new start. I am The Poster Child for these cliches! #2 Son is out of pocket. Let's be honest - he's incarcerated. Ok, he's in the slammer. On November 17, 2011 they took our "baby" away and I was cool with the court's decision. It had to be. As the judge stated, "...there is no other option." So, a good year? Yes!
Let me explain. Have you ever been worn out and so frail and frazzled that you became another person? This past fall, I turned into a dull, lifeless, lazy version of myself. Vava sans the voom.
A book I've posted about, A Perfectly Kept House is the Sign of a Misspent Life is my mantra. Inside, it's all about the cozy, imperfect interior as far as I'm concerned. Yet, during the fall 2011, MY innards were unkempt. I like my innards to be "perfectly kept."
I was furious and fed up with his antics. He was becoming a danger to himself and others. He is gone for a bit and now....our home is {once again} our haven. There is a palpable peace within. I enter with a smile. When gone from home, I long to be in it.
My innards are healing and I'm getting my "voom" back. I think I'll try my hand at blogging again. I've been fluffing around the home crazily. Can't help myself there. In our master, I removed the TV. Rest, relaxation and calm is what we need. I made a little corner all mine, a girly, "Vava" corner. It puts a smile on my face.
I am filled with anticipation and HOPE. Excitement is building - all around me. At work. Oh, and literally! We are building out our study...with tons of shelves. I need a library more than an office. What a delicious thought - a room to snuggle into to read. {sIgH!}
All the while, Jesus Calling has been by my side. That little book is better than a breakfast of Wheaties! And better than any book, is Jesus Himself. He's never left me. At times, I drifted...but He woos me back. He's my true "voom."
I hope to be around more and would like to raise a glass to each of you. Here's to a NEW year - let's all get our voom on!
Monday, January 9, 2012
Tuesday, October 4, 2011
Stop the Ride!
Where have I been you might ask? Or perhaps not. Probably not....but it's time for my soul to be typed out once again. Eight (8) hours from now there will be a BIG change in our lives. How I wish it was a positive, exciting change. If you knew of it; you might feel sorry for us...but I don't want that. At all. Nope. It's a decision that, in the long run, WILL be positive for #2 Son. Well, we can hope.
He will not see it as we do. He will hate us. I recall periodic bouts of "hating" my own parents as a youngster. But mine was because I was grounded. His hate will be different. His will be deep, rage-inducing. Or maybe he'll crack and fold up into a blob of agony.
He is going to have to make it through a hellish season....one not many "normals" experience. To be brutally honest, I pray he survives it.
When #2 Son was 3, we would drive into town on Saturday to "play" with my Mom. I remember telling her, "I think I love him too much." She wisely said, "No, you love him just enough." He's been different since early, early on. Say 2 or 3 years of age. It's been a constant roller-coaster-life. For 17 years...
And, in 7 hours + 55 minutes, the roller coaster may stop for a while.
He will not see it as we do. He will hate us. I recall periodic bouts of "hating" my own parents as a youngster. But mine was because I was grounded. His hate will be different. His will be deep, rage-inducing. Or maybe he'll crack and fold up into a blob of agony.
He is going to have to make it through a hellish season....one not many "normals" experience. To be brutally honest, I pray he survives it.
When #2 Son was 3, we would drive into town on Saturday to "play" with my Mom. I remember telling her, "I think I love him too much." She wisely said, "No, you love him just enough." He's been different since early, early on. Say 2 or 3 years of age. It's been a constant roller-coaster-life. For 17 years...
And, in 7 hours + 55 minutes, the roller coaster may stop for a while.
Monday, July 18, 2011
Learn a Language!
Dr. Gary Chapman, author of The Five Love Languages spoke at our church yesterday on the two essentials for successful relationships. It was really good.
My sis-in-law went with us and since she's My Guy's sister, knows him well. She's always commented on how busy he is. My Guy cleans more than Mr. Clean! He loves a polished, granite kitchen counter. He loves being on top of the laundry. He mops that kitchen floor like nobody's business. And I don't. Those "acts of service" do not make me tick. What does? Words of affirmation. (You can take the quiz right here.)
And that is how I love others - by "wording." I am an encourager and a cheerleader. It's the way God made me. Oh, since God made My Guy too, I see! He's made uniquely. So, in order to live together well, it would help to speak the language of our spouse.
Mondays are my day off and I treasure them. We've been out of town a bit and had company for a bit; so it is time for a bit of peace. All I want to do today is curl up and read, putz around the house. It is my day off for goodness sake. But! My Guy enters the house around 5 pm and [I've always known] he appreciates dinner on the table and a spiffy home.
I better get going and do something around here - acts of service ya know. Goodness, I've only got an hour, 15...
My sis-in-law went with us and since she's My Guy's sister, knows him well. She's always commented on how busy he is. My Guy cleans more than Mr. Clean! He loves a polished, granite kitchen counter. He loves being on top of the laundry. He mops that kitchen floor like nobody's business. And I don't. Those "acts of service" do not make me tick. What does? Words of affirmation. (You can take the quiz right here.)
And that is how I love others - by "wording." I am an encourager and a cheerleader. It's the way God made me. Oh, since God made My Guy too, I see! He's made uniquely. So, in order to live together well, it would help to speak the language of our spouse.
Mondays are my day off and I treasure them. We've been out of town a bit and had company for a bit; so it is time for a bit of peace. All I want to do today is curl up and read, putz around the house. It is my day off for goodness sake. But! My Guy enters the house around 5 pm and [I've always known] he appreciates dinner on the table and a spiffy home.
I better get going and do something around here - acts of service ya know. Goodness, I've only got an hour, 15...
Thursday, July 7, 2011
What Soothes YOUR Soul?
Sometimes a feeling comes over me that's hard to describe. It's like a punch in the gut but I call it nostalgia. A memory is sparked and if alone, I might even sigh aloud. Or I get choked up and all emotional. What spurs me to feel this way??? Sounds often do. A train whistle. I mean really....I stop dead in my tracks and revert to being 12'ish in summertime. That dove's coo as well.
Last night I was sitting on my back patio - tiny little patch of cement - with a tiny little glass of wine. Alone, I was leafing through a shelter magazine, featuring beach houses. Oh, my gosh, they are what summer is or should be! It stems back to my fondest memories of childhood spent at a beach home. Mimi's was grand; but I don't need grand: a tiny little cottage would do.
Check it out:
What a little home for happy-happy-joy-joy days! Oh, this is lOvE! There are no plans this summer for a trip to the sea. I will live vicariously through blogs and more magazines. Erin of EOS lives close to the sea and her blog set my imagination loose. (...and forced me to post these pics!).
The sea is it for me; no matter the season. Yet the older I get, the less I enjoy basking in the sun - give me a fall/wintery day of walking a beach and that's my idea of heaven on earth.
I also found this poster:
Curious if anyone else feels those gut wrenching bits of nostalgia? I know I should not envy, covet or look to my past. I don't think that's what I'm doing.
The sea cures much and soothes my soul. I'm just sayin'.
Sunday, June 26, 2011
No Fireworks...please!
There will most likely be a ban on fireworks due to the Texas drought! It's quite hot here. Yet, our gorgeous Dynamite Red Crape Myrtles finally blossomed. We have two - on both sides of the house. We thought something happened cuz everyone else's crape/crepe (sp???) myrtles have been in full throttle. We had our downpour last week and look!
How funny that her name has an explosive connotation. Planted by our homestead - thar she blows! We sure don't need fireworks around here: either the physical OR literal type! Thank you, very much!
On this very day our sermon was on JOY and we're told it's a must, i.e., a command in The Bible. Read 1 Thessalonians 5:16 a few times. Ben Stuart preached on it today. He tells us: "Every time there is a 'when,' we rejoice."
Even today WHEN you-know-who is slipping and we see a shadow of darkness appear?
Ok, Lord....HOW!? Oh, yea. Joy is a gift. We receive this gift through The Holy Spirit WHEN we seek and ask!
JOY TRANSCENDS CIRCUMSTANCES.
...even WHEN the fuse has been lit!
As I tiptoe away from the fireworks of the flesh (it's so dangerous!), I contemplate on a sovereign God! And I am filled with joy at the thought that MY GOD is stomping on that fuse for me!
The joy of the Lord is your strength. (Vava)
Nehemiah 8:10
Monday, June 20, 2011
The Marvels of Monday!
Isn't it marvelous what green spray paint and a new drum shade do to an almost 10 year old lamp?
I had a MARVELOUS field trip to Arbor Gate today...for some lavender.
(and they promised these would do well here with good soil, sun and afternoon shade!)
And while in my backyard; I couldn't help but admire this marvelous bit of nature. Love this plant!
Anyone know what it is???
Sis-in-law painted this whimsical bit of artistry to hang on her screened-in back porch.
Isn't it A-MA-ZING???? Quite marvelous, really!
MARVELOUS Monday began early for me with my cup of coffee and some quiet time. "Jesus Calling" is a favorite of mine. It's written as if Christ is talking directly TO you. And, almost every day..He does. To me! Today was no different...
(if you don't have this book, take a minute to read today's! You'll be blessed!)
I've been intentional in seeing God in everything. Trying to. It's a VERY cool way to live out your day! And, He gifted me with my favorite sound - yes, friends, you know what I love. The coo of a dove. I could hear him so well. And I looked out my bedroom window and there he was. Showing off. JUST FOR ME!
(a poor picture taken from inside...but no matter. He was there singing TO ME!)
Mondays are my day off and it's been simply MARVELOUS!
My prayer is that I walk with The Spirit and with eyes wide open tomorrow - at work, running errands, doing life. Try it, you'll like it!
Sunday, June 12, 2011
Doing LIFE!
I've had two months since my last post to refocus on LIFE. It's been full. Working part time has been interesting. I started out questioning myself. Self: why are YOU here? But, with great counsel (now a dear friend) by a wise woman...am just really leaning into it. Leaning on God, yes.......and what I cannot do, He can! And I can say that now I am enjoying it so much. It brings me joy and LIFE.
As much as I love entertaining, the preparation for a wedding shower at the homestead yesterday forced My Guy and I to focus Around the House and in the Garden (yes, it IS a book title!). What I cannot do, he can (small "he" vs large "He")! I'd like to take this time to nominate My Guy as Best Husband of The Year!!! Dug beds, laid flagstone, hauled dirt, planted, washed windows, mended fences. Without complaint.
This bed was enlarged; but due to the Texas drought, our new plantings are really suffering...
Sometimes smaller is more do-able. Surely I can keep the pots alive!
Life is good. I am surrounded by good teachers. All the day. As long as I'm intentional about keeping my eyes, heart and mind OPEN; I plan to learn. The wise woman once said to me a year ago (and this is huge!).
Does [insert activity] give you LIFE?
...it's been twirling around in my head since she first mentioned it. At that time; "it" wasn't. So I quit. There is a popular song on right now by Adele with the catchy phrase "I coulda had it all." Love the tune; but I don't want that as my theme song! We CAN have it all!!!!! I don't mean the material things; but those things that count! Peace, joy, harmony, love! And so, that's what I've been doing.
Doing LiFe!
Around the House and in the Garden happen to be two of my favorite things to work on. And also one of my beloved books. Page 198 just rocks!
"Keep close to the people you love, the ones who stay engaged and open to LIFE, who bring joy and peace to house and garden. Take with you everything you have learned - and remain humble enough to learn more." (Dominique Browning)
Tell me...friends. What are you doing these days that gives you LIFE???
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